Forgive and Forget

                                                                                    


there are plenty of opportunities not only that look take control of your own life not ppl controlling you and please only work hard for yourself.....    
                                                     
                                                            Mr Ssssss ( my schoolmates)


     My schedule is very tight . I don't have time to meet my friend. They said very hard to ask me come out for drink . This is true. I am very busy . I felt like being controlled .... Live in cage .No freedom. I want to leave such life but i can't . I am not rich girl. I have to work myself  for a better life. I exprienced poor and hard life in my past life.I don't want to repeat again . Hard life is my nightmare . My dad not help me that time when i really really need help.  Now he help me a bit . Yea, since he sick . I stared forgive him , but sometimes i also remembered how he treated me and my mum.But i already forgive him . Although how bad and not good he is he still my father .


    I used to followed him when i was little girl. Everytime he go to work or outstation . I really worried. I love my Dad than my mum that time . I don't know why ???  I followed him went to palm oil farm and  estate. I want always with my dad . His job is hard job. Go to palm oil estate   and some of the estate is consider jungle.I saw snake ,colourful snake ,big and long snake , turtle  ,porcupine . That time i really active and not scare to those animals. But now i very scared when see the snake . 


      some of my step sibling don't like us and i don't like my young step sis too. I don't know anything that time. Suddenly hated by people .Most of my family members treated me not fair . sometimes not my mistake but they stey still beat and hit me.  I am poor girl and abused by them ... dad i love but h beat and hit me . I hate him that time . infront of stranger or visitor also beat me. I shy and shame to face people. I felt like my family member don't like me. My mum just love my youngest brother. He don't really care when dad beat and hit me. My hand and body became blue and pain .  I felt lonely and alone in the house. I like go to school .My teacher like and care me. They said i am cute .I am talk active and talk everything to my teacher  but i not tell them being abused by family . I told my teacher i want follow her . she laugh and told my sister . mmm .... i am innocent that time...Everyone love me but why my family ..dad and mum don't love and care me.... why??? I felt like i am not their daughter.


              Now i am growth and become matured . I understand , and experienced life. Life is short and everyone will leave the world. Some of my friend and relative had leaved . I don't know when is my time . But i wish i can leave early than the person i love and care . Leave the world peace ^^ pls .  I am selfish lol..... i don't want to suffer . i am weak ..... I just knew I have forgive my family . I really love and care them .They are part of my life. Step family and adopt family aka my friend who anyone who treated me very well and touched my heart. They are very important  for me. I really love them


      Yesterday the mad dog's sister came to shop.Mad dog name given by someone not me , LL saw her attitude and the way is like a mad dog . so she called her mad dog. mmm...actually i also felt so . she is like a mad dog . But i not call her mad . After LL started called her mad dog , i followed. Ic ...i am not the only one ....LL also called her mad dog because she acted like mad dog.....  mad dog's sis came ....i not talk to her and pretend don't know her. 

Ym : Her sister?

m3 : yea

Ym: why so ugy!!!

m3: (i smile )

Ym: why you never talk to her?

m3: I don't like her attitude !!!

      Some of lady very ugly but they still behave like a mad dog and made themself ugly and fugly . mm...why ??? already ugly but still want to make yourself ugly . If you ugly but with kind and pure heart . you are not ugly . You are pretty and beautiful . Your inner and kind heart shine your appearances. Duck turn to Swan.


    I am not perfect too . I have feeling and want to respect me too . I will try my best to be kind to anyone . But once you take treat me bad , betray , or hurt me  . yeah...same like you all . I will angry too . But they say i am cool .If i really angry , that mean you really hurt me . Maybe very hard for me to forgive such people.

    Pray for the world and Japan 

GOD please forgive them and give them chance,

Almighty GOD your powerful and king or the earth and heaven,

The earth and life  will follow your words,

You are the only one who can control the world and the people,

Please give us chance ,

please guide us,

Amen.

                                I am chocolate lover ^ ^ .  They say how come i can lose weight , always eat snack and chocoate... lol ...not always la.... sometimes only .... but i like chocoate  haha.  chocolate and Dark chocolate is good for healthy if  you consume correct .

I love perfume too . Perfume is one of my collection . I like Gucci , Burberry , Estee lauder and anna sui fragrance . Most of the fragrance expensive :( . now i just afford to buy Anna sui fragrance Forbidden affairs. Nice smell and reasonable price. 

Yesterday i bought this perfume. The taste not bad.i like it and the price is cheap . I taught want buy Anna Sui perfume or lancome but there no Anna sui perfume  available.  mmm ..I still have the lancome perfume . so i bought this perfume Rm45 . The smell is good .

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